who are u ? may i ask ??

i don't know what is wrong anymore.
is it me ?
but i know what's happening
its all just a routine right ??

i've been there when u need me
regardless.
no matter what.
no matter how hard
no matter what i need to sacrifice.

but lately i keep asking myself
do you even appreciate it at all ??
or do you just make use of me and then be jolly happy all by yourself.

i dont have anyone to tell anymore
because all they see is a pathetic girl whom is desperate for attention
it all hurts so bad
when even the closest to you think that of you

i feel like i dont have anyone else to turn to
i feel so pathetic
i wouldnt let you control me anymore

you know i wouldnt turn my back so you take advantage of it.
is it really so ??
i keep asking myself
i never want this life for myself
i know i can do better
but i thought life is fighting for what you want

i never thought i would feel this trapped
but what's done is done i guess
maybe that's the biggest problem
and i will not let myself be in that position again

so let it be then
if that's what you want
i'll be happy to do as you wish

Ducky is feeling great :)

i've been feeling better you know.
i try not to be emo all the time.
i figured its better to smile than to sulk right ??
i still wouldnt go around smiling like orang gila lahh...
i think its been working well.

that doesnt mean im not sad deep down.
i feel like i need some sparks in my life.
something to tell me that everything will be okayy.
i finally can ignore wadever that comes my wayy..

its tough to lose things on the way.
but on the journey to feeling better, i've gained many things.
i know which friends are worth keeping and some i should not even bother about.

oh well i think enough said for now.
im feeling fine and that's great :))

i mean look at Rihanna, she picked herself up from the darkest place and is doing great now !!

later peeps :)
daph~

A day in a life of Tiffany..

these pass few weeks has passed by in a daze. seriously! let me show u what i have been doing for the past few days in the past week.

1) wake up
2) get ready to go uni
3) eat whatever there is
4) RUNNING for the bus.
5) listening to lecturer blabbing
6) plop oneself in the library
7) come home
8) eat dinner
9) plop oneself on the laptop! ASSIGNMENTS!
10) best part : back to sleep. and it goes back to square number 1 again.

JOY!

this kind of moments i just wish i had not taken the big step to come here. But, there is a BUT, I'll get use to it, eventually. You won't feel the feeling of loneliness once it hits you. i blame the stupid mind working brain of mine for stressing out.=D

However, the most interesting thing that's going to happen is my internship in Queensland. speaking of the beach and sun and all wonders of what you can do in summer, is just another 4 more weeks away for me. Big SMILE!=)
lots more shopping to do and SALES are all over. Bigger SMILE!=)

til next time then..*huggies*

tiff

failure

I Will not let a little setback bring me down. Easier said than done. But i have to stay strong and focused. I can't afford to slack anymore. But somehow the energy is not there.

3rd Nov 2010 Will be a significant date to me and i must remember the lesson that comes with it.

With it comes disappointment and the feeling that is so helpless.

Many things are beyond control i guess. But this i could have done better. Instead i wasted time on other garbage and hence.

Too late but i Will make sure i carve out a future that is bright for myself.

Daph.

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a little irony of life

When things become more like a pattern rather than spontaneous and natural, it becomes such a drag. No longer are the answers its okay or we'll make it through. It becomes angry words such as I've had enough or I've waited the whole day for you. Is it the human norm to expect demand and assume over time? is it true that we tend to want more each and every time.

Maybe we should just take what comes and go. But a lot of times we let the anger in us take charge and in the end lose it.

I guess the stereotype that humans prefer something that's fresh and new is true. For example some men can cheat on their wives of 30 years for a hotter version of their wives.

Im just saying. We often let all those insignificant feelings take charge of our minds.

But ironically all those thoughts and actions shape our future.

Daph

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The Fat Duck's Chef..=)

I have to admit, this English Chef, Heston Blumenthal is just one in a million! For a Culinary Tutorial, i watched one of his shows and it was about him making a Wondrous Once in A Lifetime Christmas Feast Fit for Ancient Kings. its just A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! imagine watching a blockbuster movie and having a sense of what the food would taste like before entering the palates. He is a chef who involves in rule-breaking, unusual experiments and an exploding oven. Taking another step towards the Molecular gastronomic Culinary experience.






his "snail porridge"

tiff<3

epic fail

I came across this and thought that i should share it.
It sure did make my day better.

Daph =)

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opinions.

Am i too harsh? ?
Everytime i try to give my opinions on issues, i tend to start a debate rather than give advice to the other party involved. Am i being too self-indulgent till i forget that maybe im wrong?

I always wanna protect those dear to me. But it has become more of an obstruction rather than a solution.

Im just dynamic that way.
So if you really care what i think maybe you should take into account wad i say.

The person im talking about May never read this. So why do i bother?

Oh wells deep down i can never let u astray and meet a dead end.

So whenever you care to take me into consideration.
Im always here.

Daph.

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life.

Im blogging on my phone! its so fun right. I can watch a series and blog at the same time.
Something i watched today made me realise that life is too short to dwell on negativity. But somehow it just gets to us right.

I Will post pictures to beautify this blog =)

Later!
Daph :)

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reality to-do list..

its a list i'm suppose to actually follow to make my life a more on the move, if you know what i mean. short and simple to show my coming back in blogging.=)

1. start dieting. (i should start acting instead of thinking)

2. organize my planner . (cramped with all the laziness..*bummer*)

3. start searching for food for loves. (starting with food bloggers)

4. find a J-O-B.

5. Make sure to save money to continue travelling around. ( lacking in depth with this one)

6. spent more time moving then slacking. (i love my bed sooo much)

7. think of what i wan in the future to expand my interests. (deep but truthful)

there u go, serious thoughts are placed here. just so you know, i'm loving the girl who i'm sharing this blog with. As always, i'll be your back bone when you need me. =) *twinkle*

*love you bestie*

love tiff <3

a nameless post.

so its been ages since i last updated. mainly because nothing much has happened anyways.
life is always gonna be life. filled with fucked up moments and people not worth crying over.

i've decided to start blogging again. main reason ?
i can say anything i want. and no one's gonna ask me what its about.
i cant even really tweet what i wan, again some would see and wonder...
dont get me wrong i wan those close to me to see my tweets, but some i rather not.

let's see, how was 2010 ?
i lost a couple of friends,
realised that some people aren't who i thought they were,
finished 2nd year of college, that i did quite well i think.
besides that, it's been really suckyy....

and it doesnt get better.
i wish some people would just stop being as annoying and start to be urmm,
i dunno how to describe...but whatever, as long i'm doing my own stuff i should be alright.

i realized one really important thing. put aside all the crap, do your family proud and think of all the sacrifices your parents made for you since you were born.
i know mine did. esp my mum, all she cares is what's best for me,
so i've decided to give my best and make her proud !
im her princess and im always gonna be her little girl.
i'm really blessed to have a mum like her.
she's my best friend and i can tell her everything.
its really when no one else would care, a phone call with my mum makes everything less sucky/

as for all the other things, i'll just go with the flow and see how it turns out :)

daph.

life is unfair...

I come to realize that there are things that we are not meant to understand. It's really heart breaking and scary to have heard that a person you know has passed away. The person who you have joked with and talked to and became friends with is no longer living. Everyone in my surrounding are talking about it and telling me how painful and pitiful and tragic the accident is. I really don't have the heart to want to know more because its still unacceptable that a kind and nice person is no more living. i will owez remember our last conversation which was to keep in touch. Well, wherever you are, i really hope we do keep in touch til the day i meet you again. RIP my friend and as always, you will be missed.=)


love tiffany.

FOOTBALL MANIA!

What else can i say?? ITS the FOOTBALL FEVER Month!!=)

NO RULES.

NO LAST MINUTE PLAN.
NO EXCUSES.
EAT! DRINk! SWALLOW! FOOTBALL!

its going to be just you, ASTRO and the FOOTBALL!=D

haha..okay..i do not know what i was talking about but who cares..i'm just going to be putting my free time now on just football.=D *wwweeeeeee* For the first time, the world cup is being held in SOuth Africa. So far the stadiums look amazing and i love the new mascot. ITS so cute!=D Well, pictures say a thousand world right?

*ALL the stadiums =D*

* the individual groupings*

* 2010 Mascott for Fifa World Cup*

the team i most would support is SPAIN!=) the only reason there is, is cause my favourite player. FERNANDO TORRES will be playing in the world cup! =D

will be rooting for me number 9!!<3>

tiffany =)

Guess who's BACK!!=D

Hi AGAIN!=)

I know its been a long long time since ducky and me have been updating this blog.Anyways, i am now going to start it ALL over again.As you can see it is WHITE.=)
I am giving the decorating job to me Daphne (have fun!=D)

As quoted by my gud friend, (u know hu u are) "please do sumthing to your blog, its growing fungus". =DD

TAADAAA!! its PURE WHITE !!

To all my dearest friends, HI AGAIN!=)
To those that are new or has accidentally bum into our blog..WELCOME again!=)


tiffany =D